You know how you tidy up the house before the maid service comes I used to try to hide my crazy when I went to visit my Happy Head Person. I know it’s nuts but hello that’s why I am in therapy.
Yesterday I showed up to my session with no make up, no pretense and in a foul mood. I usually try to hide my crank but when Happy Head Person asked, “How you doing?” I flatly told her, “I’m cranky.”
I really didn’t want a session. I wanted to lay on her sofa and look out the window. Had it not cross all kinds of lines I would have suggested that we skip the session and go have a few beers and some nachos. Anyway, I tell her why I am cranky. I’m not working. I’m broke. I’m tired. Blah…blah…blah. She works her magic, I am starting to feel better and then she says the magic words, “How do you feel about antidepressants?” Uh, I feel about antidepressants the same way I feel about sex toys, self help books and bourbon. If it takes you from mental shit hole to actually feeling whole then I say, “Yes. Please & Thank You!” I am all for better living through chemistry.
I have had conversations with friends who believe that you don’t need shrinks or meds, “…you only need Jesus!” Yeah, I can see their point but isn’t it also possible that Jesus gifted me with a bomb ass shrink? I also have friends who are uber healthy and can cure almost anything but organic food and Bach Flower Essences. I totally believe that roots and berries can cure your ills however if you have a gaping mental wound, organic oatmeal ain’t gonna cut it. At least it has been experience that I need a little bit more.
(Sigh)
Anyone who knows me or any long time reader knows that I have not been myself for a quite a while. If a ’script can get me back to my old self I welcome the change. I don’t fear becoming addicted and the side effects I saw on yougonnadie.com don’t scare me. From what I understand I may only need a low dose. The only thing I ask is that it doesn’t impede my weight loss and it doesn’t fuck with my sex drive. Not that I plan on having sex any time soon I just want the option to get busy if the opportunity presents itself. I’m just sayin.
So do me a favor. In the comments tell me you experience with happy head pills. If you feel comfortable doing so. Did they help? Did it take a while to get the dosage correct? Do you feel that mental meds are for suckas? Do you think I am taking the easy way out? The floor is yours. Tell me what you think.
In the meantime, peace out and as always, I wish you peace within.
Tex
PS: If you don’t want to put your bidness in the streets, shoot me an email at TalkToTex@gmail.com. I really want to know what you guys think.
Go for it and get, like, a six month supply so you don’t accidentally run out.
If it will improve your quality of life, take them. My own internal struggle with whether or not to take meds based on the stigma of it all has given me alot of sleepness nights. You trust your ‘happy head person’ and if she thinks this will improve your motivation, help you get your mojo back and basically up your happy meter, take the meds. (and yes, you already know I’ve become passionate about this!)
Dude, I am taking this shit by the fist full if it will make me feel better.
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Do what you need to Tex! Happy Head Person is usually 10000000% right on
AJ: I know, I know! Isn’t she AWESOMESAUCE!?
She IS Awesomesauce!!!
I took them for a few months. I remember Day 3 of taking them and being able to breathe with all of the air filling my lungs. I couldn’t remember the last time I was able to just breathe like that.
I think antidepressants are a lot like masturbation, more people do it than admit it.
I see a therapist too and she’s new-agey (I like her though). She’s deadset against western medicine (from what I can tell). She actually whipped up my own “rescue remedy” lol. I think it works, but deep down I think it’s a placebo. lol.
I have a friend who was on anti-depressants/ anti-anxiety (lexapro and zoloft I think…) she said it helped her but in a weird way. The odd thing is, she refused to go to therapy. But welcomed her prescription.
ps. I’m late. I know.